Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Double Team

I know an athlete who over the years has been and will continue to play against two teams everytime they step on the floor.
First the team they face... Looking to take the ball away from that athlete, looking to score against them, looking to better them at every turn. This is true of all athletes and your best friend is motivation, desire, and positive feelings about yourself.
But what if you live in a world where your brain lies to you every day. It tells you that you " will not make it " " You should give up " and tells you at some point, despite all attempts to alter brain chemistry, " there is no hope "..." there is no point in playing " . I have spoken with this athlete and asked what they do when this happens. Their answer is to plead with the God that made them...for Him to show you that there is motivation from somewhere else to carry on. Imagine what it is like when fans don't understand the flagging motivation, your coach sees it as selfishness, and the athlete in question sees it all as a personal failure...and yet...at times I am amazed: This young athlete gets angry, demands playing time, and at times triumphs over both teams they face at the same time. This athlete calls the clinical depression that has dogged her since adolescence kicked in: the " Dragons " . Sometimes the athlete has told me " the dragons have got me by the arse and they wont let go " and I tell her that her Irish Grandmother long ago struggled with the same lies that told her to " take her own life " or that there is " no hope" and yet they both found the God that long ago, and today , who says " when there is no hope left I will be your hope, I will chase the Dragons away for a time..."

1 Comments:

Blogger Susan Kirchmayer said...

i call the dragons - 'the black hole'. spent many, many years there and still struggle against the pull to be swallowed up by it again. and it is only by hanging on to God - sometimes by the skin of my teeth - that i don't fall back into the abyss.

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