Madness...

I am controlled by no one and I am controlled by everyone ( ? ) Yes!
I will decide tommorrow who will control me and who wont.
What price personal liberty ? I will grant permission to the kind-hearted, the
exploiters, the compassionate, the cruel, the sensitive and the bullies
to control me in bits and pieces, in moments or...
I could change the granting of that permission. If I do,
then those who formerly controlled my world must explain my independance
as a sickness perhaps or a flaw to others, because there is no way
around it. Such freedom requires a new security or insanity.
Insanity is good and it works, but in the long term I would not be taken seriously.
Taken seriously ? Why would it matter ? It matters...There are people who need me.
What new security then ? Perhaps this question is the biggest test
of how we see ourselves in the eyes of God. If we have REAL confidence in
HIS approval being the only thing that matters ( ultimately ) then we would live lives of true freedom.
That is how I want to live, because his will is that I am kind, compassionate, strong...
not to gain favor with others, but HIS will. Perfection ? Forget it ! Agknowledging my flawed state
and allowing God to use whatever I have ? Much better...
Tommorrow , I will grant permission to God to use me.
The approval from the rest of the crowd ? No, you are flawed like me. Forget it.

Check out the author of your existence or spend your time explaining to the rest of your colleagues this wonderful " Madness" that has gripped my heart and that of a few others.